#1
I am you now
in your chair
drinking from the same cup
I deny that you are gone everyday
The shades are always drawn and i can't stop sleeping
This is the legacy you have left me
A dirty arm chair
a cat that can barely walk
clothes that smell like budweiser and smoke
Death can never seem to decide between good or bad
It is safe to say that when you took your last breath the air was easier
to breathe
and the bathroom was clean
It is safe to say that when you took your last breath I wanted to take
mine
You would have rolled over in your grave and farted if you read this,
I will have to have the last laugh for you
#2
We never know exactly what we want until we hear the door slam
When there are no longer two sets of shoes
or clothes that smell like someone else
We never know what pain is until we reach out for emptiness
We never know exactly what we want until it has gone missing
#3
You have always accused me of disapearing
when it is you i can never seem to find
No doupt you are running through the woods barefoot
Your cat asks me everyday where you are and is never satisfied with the
answers I give
At night she screams for you
I know the feeling
When we were lovers I did the same thing
Years later housesitting, I feel comfortable in your room
When i miss you I smoke, even though I quit years ago
Sometimes I want everything back
the way that i was percieved
How i would get so drunk and talk about the end of me
These days if I drink too much I don't make sense, and I fall
If i smoke too much i have an asthma attack
When the phone doesn't ring
I wrap my arms around myself and fall asleep
I can't run from anything here
I always wake up
Silence has a way of driving me insane
I turn on the radio, the t.v, the fan
I can't seem to get around myself
If I take too many baths I will go down the drain
You have always accused me of disapearing
it is you
I can never seem to find.
